THE HISTORY OF A MALIGNANT NARCISSIST: MORGUE OFFICIAL

Narcissism is one of the most disturbing mental illnesses conceivable. It’s arguably the worst and most damaging of them all. Malignant narcs may be the people who need to be actively hunted down by society – to protect society.

In the original tale of Narcissus, Narcissus fell in love with an image – and DIED looking at it, so spellbound was he. He didn’t realize he was looking at his own reflection … the image was his own!

Narcissus killed himself. This was the first suicide caused by an obsession with beauty and perfection and image. However, in a way Narcissus wasn’t a narcissist at all – because he wasn’t consciously fixated on himself. As far as he was concerned, he was transfixed by someone else’s image, not his own.

In the same story, Echo was smitten by Narcissus and couldn’t take her eyes off him. Narcissus also couldn’t take his eyes off Narcissus, but didn’t realize it was Narcissus he was gazing at. Echo was in love with the Other. Narcissus believed he was in love with the Other too … but the Other was actually himself.

Narcissism KILLS the narcissist. It killed the original Narcissus, and it kills all of his successors. The person who is killed by narcissism is the REAL SELF.

The real self of a narc is not perfect, is not beautiful, is not powerful. It’s weak, pathetic, self-hating, insecure, full of shame, and terrified of criticism and abandonment. It’s repulsive.

No one could go through life so fucked, so the psyche has to mount a defensive response to protect itself. It dissociates and summons forth a replacement for the real self … the False Self, which is everything the real self is not.

The real self is then buried in the deep unconscious. Of course, things in the unconscious are not GONE. They may be repressed, but the nature of this repression is such as to give the repressed component enormous UNCONSCIOUS power. Why are narcissists so paranoid, depressed, miserable … unable to enjoy a real life and have real relationships? It’s because their “dead self” isn’t dead and exerts, from the unconscious, a terrible shadow over the person’s entire existence. The False Self desperately tries to combat this negative influence encroaching on everything. It cannot look internally to the psyche – because that’s exactly where the real self is working its unconscious horrors. That is, it cannot exercise INTERNAL REGULATION, SELF-REGULATION. It CANNOT be autonomous. So, cut off from internal regulation, it has only one other place to go … EXTERNAL REGULATION. What does that mean? It means that you need OTHERS to give you your sense of self. Which is of course a total paradox. You are NOT a self if you are totally reliant on others. You are the ultimate Other-Directed person!

Appalled by his own real image, the narcissist simply kills it off and replaces it with a FALSE IMAGE that he can truly adore. And then he spends the rest of his life being entranced by this construct, which he regards as himself. But the narc can only adore the construct VIA THE EYES OF OTHERS. He loves himself not via himself (he can’t because his true self makes this impossible), but via the response of others to him. If THEY treat him as GOD, then he must be GOD, right? It is objectively PROVEN, is it not? If others are worshiping him, it can only be because he is God, right?!

So, while the narc is being WORSHIPED, he feels “happy”, insofar as these narc freaks are capable of happiness. (They’re never actually happy because their real self – the “absent presence” – haunts them forever.)

But how do you get others to worship you? That is the puzzle every narc has to solve. They all have the same strategy – to LIE constantly and totally. Every narc, as we saw in a previous AC update, plays the game of posing as a hero (or antihero) and/or victim. They can’t be bothered with any other roles. No other role has narc potential.

Look at Corey Rebhahn (Morgue Official). This man is a textbook malignant narcissist. He was a little gay boy, born in sin, to two Christian Fundamentalists, one of whom was a “manly” conservative cop. Both of Corey’s parents were repulsed by this effeminate boy who constantly reminded them of their own sinfulness. They probably regarded his effeminacy as a punishment from God, and they probably did everything they could to stop little Corey being gay. So, here we have the archetypal situation for someone to detest their real self … hated by their own parents, repulsive to their own parents, abandoned by their own parents, raised as a Christian yet guilty of the “sin” of homosexuality, hence utterly condemned by that religion (which sadistically talks of stoning homosexuals to death!), and so on.

Rebhahn watched The NeverEnding Story – the story of a bullied (gay) boy escaping to Fantasia and becoming the hero – and his whole life changed utterly. He too would escape to FANTASIA. Which is why Rebhahn now talks about Hyperia, New Terra, CFDs, and all that – all total fantasies for escaping from THIS WORLD … from REALITY.

Rebhahn cannot bear reality. He has NEVER been able to accept reality, and reality has so often been fantastically cruel to this freak and weirdo.

Rebhahn, unable to endure himself, unable to pay attention to himself (to his reality), became a total Attention Whore (narc), determined to get the attention of others so that he could love himself via THEIR love of him (not his own – Rebhahn CANNOT love or even like himself, and that’s why he can NEVER be content and happy and satisfied).

Rebhahn has ALWAYS been addicted to attention. We learned that he got a magic book at age 4. So, he was trying to perform “magic” to get people to pay attention to him. Then we learn that he went around in conservative Montana dressed as a Marilyn Manson goth – so everyone called him a freak and weirdo! He LOVED the attention, even the negative attention. He was the center of the show, after all, and narcs ALWAYS want to be the center of the show.

Then Rebhahn ended up in Los Angeles, with its thriving gay scene and Attention Whore scene. Since he had no education and no qualifications, Rebhahn got crappy work in a beauty parlor and a hair salon. There, he became obsessed with makeup and hairstyles to project an exotic image to get attention, just like his androgynous, perverted hero Marilyn Manson. He started a side hustle as a street performer – TO GET MORE ATTENTION. He did extreme self-harm stunts … TO GET MORE ATTENTION. He gave himself silly names: The Night Bringer, Morgue, Mister Morgue, the Shock Surgeon, the Terror of Men … TO GET MORE ATTENTION. He ran a cult – the Terrors of Men, full of weird “interns” – that was all about posing as a shocking antihero (in the manner of Marilyn Manson) and being totally outrageous and provocative and hating on normal society. ALL TO GET ATTENTION. The sicker the things he said, he imagined, the more ATTENTION he would get. He was very taken by Heath Ledger’s psychopathic JOKER, so that got added to the mix. Rebhahn had decided to get ATTENTION via the shock factor, by being outrageous, and by building a cult around himself.

Then Rebhahn’s dreams started to come true when he became a reality TV star on AMC’s Freakshow (which ran for two seasons, from February 14, 2013 to June 24, 2014), where he was the resident sword swallower and self-harmer – and he started to get a fan club (worshipers) and serious attention. He was in his element. Rebhahn’s life would have worked out very differently had he enjoyed many years on the Freakshow – it would have given him all the narc supply and celebrity he craves – but the show was pulled after a couple of seasons. Rebhahn was repulsed by the idea of going back to street performing. He was “big time” now and wanted a big stage. As it was, the “Venice Beach Freakshow”, on which the AMC Freakshow was based, continued until April 30, 2017, when the venue was closed. Rebhahn continued to perform his stunts there and get narc supply until the very end.

In 2016, seeing that the writing was on the wall for the freakshow, Rebhahn had to work out what to do to have a post-freakshow life.

He thought he might be able to leverage what celebrity he had to run a shocking Dionysian cult in LA, but, despite a number of attempts, that just never took off.

In the background, Rebhahn had come across our work and had been studying it for years, and had started seeing all sorts of possibilities. Inspired by us, he started writing his own books and began to fancy himself as an intellectual. He joined various online Illuminist projects to try to get closer to us, made one attempt to get our attention that was basically rejected, and then, in the second half of 2016, made a huge push to get in touch with us via NK, who eventually connected Rebhahn with us.

Rebhahn had meanwhile set up his own “secret society” – the ORDER OF ONE. He LOVED the total control he exerted over those that joined. He could see how much these people adored him. When he broke through all the way to direct contact with us, he was ELATED. He had always dreamt of this. He once told us that he expected this to happen and had worn Illuminati and New World Order imagery during the Freakshow in anticipation of what was to come.

Anyway, it just so happened that online Illuminism had been totally wrecked by the savage TROLL WARS, and we were looking for something new, a new vehicle, to escape from that toxic scene. Rebhahn popped up at exactly the right moment, swearing his undying loyalty, devotion, respect and all that (ho, ho, ho) and since he had something of a presence on social media (we have ALWAYS hated social media, but, hey, we live in a social media world – boo hoo!), we decided to gamble. Although all of us involved in this new project found Rebhahn’s image REPULSIVE, we thought that it was probably what the social media world would go nuts for when allied with ideas as powerful and revolutionary as ours. Anyway, we decided to risk working with this person, and HYPERIANISM was duly born in early 2017.

We were probably only interested in this project for about 18 months – until about mid 2018 and then we basically wrote it off as another failure. We found Rebhahn’s audience grotesque and a total waste of time, we were unimpressed by him and thought he was going nowhere – all of his social media stats were stuck, showing zero growth. Our ideas certainly weren’t “getting out there” and he wasn’t a good medium.

Our communication with Rebhahn became just an occasional email every few months. We hardly paid any attention to Hyperianism – which we found a staggeringly BORING scene now – and just stepped up our book production. During that time, Rebhahn and Mitchell hatched their plan to basically “disappear” all of our influence from Hyperianism and turn it into the sick, Woke monstrosity it is now.

Someone asked us a question about “Thomas Foster”, someone of whom we had very little awareness. We went to his Facebook page and found his Open Letter to Hyperianism and were horrified to discover the confirmation of many things we had suspected. More or less simultaneously, we received, after many months of silence, a message from Morgy Porgy, complaining about THOMAS FOSTER and asking if he had any connection with us (Mitchell had told Porgy that Foster was probably one of us!). We said that Foster was not one of our writers. Rebhahn then called him mentally ill and a troublemaker. Mitchell totally despised Foster.

We then told Rebhahn that we agreed with Foster’s letter and asked if Hyperianism was going to continue along this same path, and said that if this was the case then we would have to make a statement announcing our split with Hyperianism … which Rebhahn said was “demoralizing”. When he nevertheless said he would proceed as he had been doing, with no changes, we gave David Sinclair the task of writing the statement telling everyone that we were no longer working with Hyperianism. It was so incendiary, such a scathing denunciation of Rebhahn and Hyperianism, that we knew it would mean all-out war immediately. No one else wanted to in any way tone it down. So, we decided not to release the message, which would have provoked yet another DRAMA, another TROLL WAR, of which we were heartily sick. We figured that Rebhahn had in any case already got the message loud and clear that we were finished with Hyperianism. We never replied to his last message to us, where he confirmed that he wasn’t going to change course. He already knew what that meant – that we were done with him and Hyperianism.

We expected Rebhahn to dramatically change course since he no longer had our support, and thus clearly had no permission to use our work, our system, our ont math. But Rebhahn didn’t change anything. We now know that he didn’t even tell his mods about any of this. We assumed that he had and that they had agreed to continue as before – which made us totally LOATHE them. We saw them as active conspirators against us, nakedly helping Rebhahn to abuse our work, and they made MANY statements on their deadstreams and in their social media comments that we took as totally antagonistic towards us and condemning of our trademark illiberalism and lack of Wokeness. We regarded them as mere extensions of Rebhahn.

Anyway, David Sinclair wrote several books that were plainly trashing Rebhahn and Hyperianism and all of Woke culture – but without directly naming Rebhahn and Hyperianism … but hardly anyone seemed to realize what was going on. Rebhahn himself no doubt understood PERFECTLY, but he just kept on going exactly as before, in fact getting even more WOKE and nauseating.

And so David Sinclair was finally given permission to unleash the dogs of war … to write a specific attack piece directly naming Morgue and Hyperianism.

In May, 2022, we were shown screenshots of the private mod chat – attacking both Thomas Foster and us – and we were absolutely livid. Sinclair said he was going to turn up his attack to “11”.

Along came “Without the Mob, There Is No Circus” and its even more explosive sequel (this latter book incredibly got blocked because of a bizarre bug in Amazon’s system). Anyway, “Without the Mob” was easily enough of a firebomb on its own.

And you know the rest. Here we all are in the aftermath of the detonation of Sinclair’s book.

Hyperianism still exists. Or does it? Consider these interesting remarks by JS Clay: